Wednesday, May 26, 2010

great gadzooks!

Just because it's a fun thing to say, that's why!

I want to take a couple of lines and share how much the comments of encouragement have meant to me. I appreciate it more than I can possibly make known. What a sweet network we've got going here!

I slept much better last night, praise God!! The discomfort didn't magically go away, but the nagging thoughts and the constant rehashing of the accident did. Today I feel much clearer and coherent! That's a happy!

I did a little work this morning, so I felt productive (for a nice change) and two darling friends stopped by for a visit (and brought a delicious lunch) so I had some much appreciated social interaction. That wasn't online. Hahaha!

My daughter stopped by after work today; this was her last day with students! She's stopped by every day after school this week, and I love seeing her. She's very vibrant and chatty and she makes me smile.

My son has kept me amused today with phone messages, calls, e-mails and facebook messages.

Another darling friend brought us dinner and kept us company (and amused by her two- and six-year-old).

I'm about worn out!

It's a happy worn out. I like happy worn out!

:)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

please feel no obligation to read any further . . .

I just need to explore some thoughts, get 'em out where I can see them, and hopefully be done with them. Consider this an exercise in purging, so to speak.

With that in mind, know that I don't expect, nor really want, anyone to read any further. I'm not really complaining, and I'm not seeking pity. I just need to stop thinking some things, and type them on out of my system.

I've not slept well since before the accident. Friday night it was the constant activity of nurses and techs coming in through the night, poking here, prodding here. I understand. It's what they have to do. Doesn't make it any easier, though! Saturday, Sunday and Monday nights, I was lucky enough to be home (well, Hunter Road home), and in my own bed, but still sleep doesn't come easily. Unfortunately, it means my best friend and darling husband isn't sleeping well, either, and I don't know how to make that better. Ugh.

Part of my problem is that I was in a car accident, and have all the typical aches and pains that come with that. My forehead feels bruised all the way across, I presume from hitting the airbag. My neck, back, and shoulders are achy, as are my arms and around my waist, where the seat belt cinched me, and both my knees from hitting whatever it was that bruised them up. Just enough to make it difficult to find a comfortable position to lie in. Add the five-pound (I'm guessing) plaster cast and a right foot that I'm very much aware of, and you can probably understand why being comfortable in bed is in my long-range goals!

Part of it is that I close my eyes and relive the accident. From the complete shock of seeing the oncoming car swerve into my lane, to the initial impact and the instant realization that one of my body parts had just broken, to the airbag going off just a split second later (which I'd never experienced before), the whirl of the ride down into the ditch, and finally the car coming to a shuddering halt. It happened in a matter of seconds, I'm sure, but I take a lot longer to replay it in my mind. Ugh. I can't ever make anything different happen, though I've tried and tried.

Then I get to thinking about the other driver. How is he? I rode in the ambulance with him to the hospital, but I'm not sure what the extent of his injuries are. I spent a lot of time praying for him and his family last night; that they would experience the same love and outpouring of support from family, friends, and church family that we have. That his injuries would be mild and he would be able to recover quickly and completely. And then part of me wonders what in the world he was thinking or doing, that made him swerve into oncoming traffic. And does his family know what happened? He told paramedics he didn't know remember anything. Does he blame me? I know, in the scheme of things, it's a petty thought, but it's there nonetheless.

And then I think about the lack of pain that I have in my foot. And it's a triple-edged sword. On the one hand, I feel incredibly blessed that I don't have pain. I haven't taken prescription pain pills since they gave them to me in the hospital on Saturday morning at 9 am. Since then, I've taken ibuprofen and now have moved on to no more than six extra-strength Tylenol per day. If you'd seen my foot, you'd understand how incredible this is. On the other hand, I almost feel like I need to be in pain to justify the fact that I'm relatively helpless -- no driving, no walking, no long-term standing, and folks are bringing us meals. And then I wonder if I've got no pain because the nerve damage is so severe, there's nothing connecting those pain sensors in my foot to the rest of my body. The lack of pain I've felt from the get-go is a source of constant amazement to me. After the initial pain of the injury, my foot burned for about ten minutes. And then it numbed up and I really haven't felt much out of it since, except when they poured peroxide down into the wound to clear it out. I think I may have quoted LOTR at that point and half muttered, half moaned, "It burns us, Precious!" Whatever pain medication they had me on at that point sure didn't cover peroxide!

At the scene of the accident, the early responders and the paramedics kept wanting to know if I'd seen my foot; how could I be so calm and clear-headed when it looked the way it looked. I kept having to reassure them that, yes, I had seen my foot, and I was going to be okay. LOL! Usually the reassuring goes the other way around. I do love not fitting into the status quo!

Then I start to think about what lies ahead. I never (coherently) spoke with the orthopedist who did the surgery. She spoke to Todd & Jocelyn afterward, so what I know is filtered through their re-telling. Since there's way to many scenarios to speculate on, and since it is a 'wait-and-see' game, there's no point in going into it all. This is where the rubber meets the road for me. This is where I have to grab back onto the knowledge that ALL things work to the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. It's futile to worry about future *possible* pain and complications because (1) if He so ordains it, then I've got to believe it will bring glory to Him through my life and (2) it's only a potential, worrying about it won't change whether or not it happens, it just gives me a bit of a headache and upset stomach in the here and now. Needlessly!

But I'm not done. Then I think about how I was just starting to enjoy the physical exercise and it and my diet was making a difference. And now there is just not going to be much exercise beyond walking to the bathroom and back to the couch. And I promise you, this is exertion. But will it be enough? I don't want to put on more pounds because I'm couch bound. I'll have to be so extra-special-careful to get lots of water and to push away all the sweets that well-meaning folks deliver. In fact, I had Todd carry them away from my couch station, and to the kitchen, so that if I really wanted to get a sweet, I'd have to get up and exert myself for it. Yeah. It's all I can do to make it to the bathroom. Forget the kitchen.

And I also worry about the good leg. Can it handle all the stress of carrying around the weight of my body by itself? My knees were already feeling arthritis. Is this just going to spiral my good leg into faster bouts of that mess? Another worry I just need to let go of and let God figure out. Of course, my past actions play into it to . . . I've made such poor eating/exercise choices for so long, that I'm going to reap the consequences for some of that now. *sigh*

And I dread taking a shower. I know I need one today, but it's such a chore. Getting back there, bagging up the leg, getting into the chair in the tub, trying to wash my hair and face and everything sitting down with my back to the shower head. Then getting out of the tub and trying to dry off, dry my hair and get dressed . . . it's exhausting! Especially since I can't stand alone on that left leg for too long without it bothering me.

Okay. I'm done. This was a catharsis, and now I feel better. I hope you didn't feel the need to read all of this, but if you did, go back to the first two paragraphs and please understand that this was a means to an end; an exercise in hopefully expunging it from my brain!

And I do feel better. I needed to be reminded of the Father's faithfulness. I needed (and will probably need in the future) to be reminded that I am held by an all-powerful Lord who is omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent, and I'll just let my awe of Him dazzle all that other petty stuff. He's got this one.

I'm so grateful!

:)

Monday, May 24, 2010

checking in . . .

So, just thought I'd share some photos of my interesting weekend . . .

I really did have a nice, private room at the hospital; great view, right??? Actually, it's a pretty spectacular view of Monte Sano mountain. Huntsville is a very beautiful southern city.


Here's a closeup of the foot, after surgery . . .

The red stuff is just where they tried to get as much polish off my toes as possible -- I guess they were wanting to see blood flow in my foot or something or there was some contraption that they had to put on the big toe. That's why it looks so messy.

Here's my right arm, with all the colorful bracelets!! The bruising is all post-accident. It's not an easy thing to put an IV in while the ambulance is moving. Especially since I've got tiny, tiny, uncooperative veins! Anyway, they had to put a new one in on the left side at the hospital, 'cause none of the ones on the right side were working. Between the two, every time I look at my arms I feel a bit like a junkie! Ah well, this too shall pass.


And some happies (oh my, there have been lots). These are from my mommy & daddy . . .

Happy, cheery!

:)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

good excuses . . .

I've always wondered if, when put in a tough situation, I'd be able to honestly believe that God causes all things to work for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28).

What a praise and blessing that I am able to say, without a doubt, that not only could I say that, but I believed it with all my heart! And still do! My Lord has been so incredibly faithful to me over the past few days.

That being said . . .

Car wrecks are NO fun.

NO FUN!

I was involved in a two-car (two people) accident on Friday morning. Luckily, neither of us were life-threateningly hurt.

But . . . I was hurt, nonetheless.

I do have pictures, but I promise I won't show them! LOL! (Even though my daughter suggested I share the gruesome photos/details here.) Let's just say that there were things sticking through my ankle area that aren't supposed to show *outside* the skin. EVER!

Long story short? After a 30-minute surgery and closing things up on Friday, I have to go back for a second surgery in two weeks to have pins and assorted hardware put in place. I've always wanted to have a bionic body part! Not to mention that I'll have a legitimate reason to make airport security go off!

Plus, where the airbag hit my right forearm, it looks like the forearm blades from one of the X-Men heroes. Now if you can trade a car accident for super hero powers and bionic body parts, it's got to be okay, right?!?

As folks continued to come into my little portion of the ER and ask, "What happened?" my children -- who have been an incredible blessing throughout this ordeal -- finally hit upon, "She got attacked by a velociraptor . . . not sure yet whether or not it had rabies." Hey, it made me laugh!

I have a lovely walker to help me get around; no weight on that right foot for at least 12 weeks. TWELVE WEEKS! Ummm. Can we say summer, what, what?!?!

So, no work for a while, no driving for a while (and never driving again my darling little PT Cruiser #2), nothing more than lap quilting for a while; I will be doing lots of reading and surfing ... and enjoying any company that lends itself to visiting with me!!! I enjoyed several hours with my grandson this afternoon, in fact. Talk about GREAT medicine!

I guess I won't be doing much to blog about over the next little while.

But I'll check in and out!

:)

Thursday, May 13, 2010

ho hum . . .

I have blog apathy right now.

I don't know why.

I've been doing lots and lots of cool things. Todd purchased tickets to Riverdance, the farewell tour, for me for Mother's Day and we went Tuesday night. It was awesome.

I thank everyone who voted for my quilt in last week's Quilting Gallery sponsored contest. I won! I got a $30 gift certificate which I quickly spent on Christmas fabric. :)

We've been walking most mornings, and it's like my own private good morning concert of birdsong, in surround sound. Plus the honeysuckle are in full bloom, along with the hedgerow, and it smells heavenly. (And I am *sucking wind* by the time we start up that hill, so I'm inhaling that fragrance deeply. So deeply I'm still catching the scent four, five hours later!)

The critters continue to come up Acorn Hill and to the corn in droves, making me laugh at their antics. There were deer and a raccoon up here this evening. A deer would get to close to the coon and he'd run the deer off. Silly things!

I was able to spend quite a bit of time with my darling grandson this past weekend. My heart just swells with love for that precious boy!

Finally I got the right ruler I need to the hexagon quilt a long. Monday will be a quilt-till-you-wilt day.

Work is work. TGTF.

A new whole foods type grocery opened in Huntsville this week. It's called Earth Fare. I plan on visiting it on Saturday morning.

All of the Movie Galleries in our area (in all areas, I guess) are going out of business. Their last rental day is Saturday, and then they're selling all of their stock. Just sayin'.

I started a new online Bible study this week. It's deep and intense and I'm excited about it.

I've even been taking lots of lots of pictures.

I am just tired. And I needed to note this for posterity.

Fin.

:)

Sunday, May 09, 2010

happy mother's day!!! :)

There are some folks for whom I'm profoundly grateful this Mother's Day, 2010 . . .
My beautiful mom being top on the list!!!

This year I have a *new* reason to feel especially celebratory on Mother's Day . . .
My darling Sawyer-bug!! Isn't he too cute? My son, an avid photographer, took this picture. He's actually got a blog up with selected pictures from his portfolio at Jameson Photography. He's pretty talented if I do say so myself! :)

And of course, there's my own darling children who've made it possible for me to be "Mom" for the past 24 years . . .

Jocelyn, with her wonderful husband, Jason!


And James, with his lovely wife, Kim (holding a rather new Sawyer)!

A mom is doubly blessed when her children pick spouses that are truly gifts from God! :)

And then there are my wonderful sisters, who are all great moms too!!! (Between the four of us, we've contributed 13 grandchildren and 1 great-grandchild; a pretty productive bunch!)


And finally, my mighty man.

The one who encourages and loves me (and our children) and is such a Godly head of our home!

Ruth Bell Graham said, “As a mother, my job is to take care of the possible and trust God with the impossible.”

Well said. And easier said than always done!

Happy Mother's Day!!!

:)

Friday, May 07, 2010

vote NOW!

I finally did it . . . I entered one of my quilts in the Quilting Gallery's weekly contest! Every week I look at the theme and think, I don't have anything that would work. And then, when the quilts are displayed for voting, I think, I COULD HAVE ENTERED ONE FOR THAT! LOL! The theme this week is "Mother's Day" and right away I thought of my quilt named "The Grand Hands Quilt"! I gave it to my mom for Christmas in 2008.

If you click HERE, you can vote for any quilt you like . . . but gosh I'd sure appreciate a vote for mine! It's the *last* one listed! This is what it looks like . . .

Voting is open through Sunday evening. I've cast my vote; I won't be back to look until it's over. It's too nerve-wracking!!

:)

Thursday, May 06, 2010

A CAMERA!!!!

So *finally* I have a camera again! It's not my old one, because they called and told me that they couldn't fix it. So they gave me a new one instead! A better new one! :) The extended warranty paid off this time.

First picture I took?

My darling man! Just after breakfast, getting ready to head to work.

Here's the instruction book for my new toy. I've read it cover to cover.

Not. (What can I say? I'm a read-it-only-if-I-have-to kinda gal!)

Finally I can share things! Like these darling towels that I won in a giveaway . . .

They were made for me and my kitchenette, don't ya' think?!?


And here's all of the iris that were blooming at the house, when I went over there the other day. Or well, what's left of them . . .

These iris were salvaged from my Grandpa Wadleigh's garden in Maryland, after he passed away 13 years ago.

Joc plans to take some of the bulbs, and I want to bring some over here to MACOBA, too, to add to the hodge-podge of things already planted in unlikely places.

I love irises! They're so *frilly*!

This is the site of the future permanent home of our RV, here at Camp MACOBA.

And this will be the view out our picture window . . .



And this will be the walk out the front door . . .


This is the hole in the hedgerow from our site . . .


So we can make quick work of the walk to the pavilion on the other side . . .

There's more pictures of MACOBA and the things going on up here on its blog, which you can check out by clicking HERE!

Everything is greening up and so pretty! You can hardly see the RV from the road into the camping area it's getting so dense! But it's in there; you just have to look *really* hard! I like it this way, for sure.


Here's the current view out our front door . . .


And here we are! The bags are full of leaves . . . this is what we used to insulate around the RV during the winter. I'm *so* ready to get rid of them! I think when we move, we'll haul them off to be burned. Todd is working on getting all of our hookups ready, and we hope to be over there before Memorial Day weekend! That would be really great, because the campsite is supposed to be FULL that weekend.


Here's a picture of the pretty azaleas on the property . . .


And finally, for posterity, here's a photo of our 1988 Toyota Tercel. This car was my dad's commuter car (which he bought new in '87) until he gave it to me in 1996, right before I married Todd. Then Todd drove it for years, until he bought his Ranger in 2003. Then it was our trusty back-up car; whenever one of our cars were down, the Tercel filled in. It's been, as Todd likes to say, like the shoes on the feet of the children of Israel during their exodus. Never wearing down or falling apart!

We sold it a couple of weeks ago . . . the end of an era. But we really didn't want it sitting at the house while we're trying to sell, and we can't keep it up here. It was time. The nice thing is, the person who bought it is driving it around; it gets to be the main vehicle again!

Toodles to it, hello new camera!

Photos of grandbaby to follow soon . . .

:)

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

inspiration . . .

Someone asked, the other day, on their blog, "What inspires your quilt making?" I had to laugh because just recently one of our friends was talking about a tile job he was doing for his son and daughter-in-law, for their back splash. I was very intrigued by what he was talking about and asked him to sketch it for us. It was very eye catching (and I was a little consumed by it). After sketching and re-sketching the blocks myself, I finally found a photo online that looks similar to what he was doing . . .

It's referred to as a pinwheel tile layout. I found lots of pinwheel tile layouts when I searched for the phrase, but this one was the closest to what he'd sketched.

I thought to myself . . . QUILT!

And I proceeded to draw it out in autocad. And then I pulled it up in paint and filled it in, just to see it!

But because of the way the squares are offset, it's not pieced as squares, but rather as strips . . .

The dark lines indicate the pattern, the dashed lines indicate the strips that would have to cut/sewn together. Lots and lots of strips, with different colors/fabrics!

I haven't seen a pattern for this anywhere I've looked; and I've looked through all kinds of books and online references. Has anyone else?

Happy quilting!!!

:)

Saturday, May 01, 2010

interlude . . . sawyer smiles!

This boy can give a solemn look . . .

But wait for it . . .

Here it comes . . .

BEAUTIFUL!!!

My darling, cooing grandson . . .

*grandma sigh*

(On a side note, I still do not have my camera back. Ugh. This is actually from video footage my son captured; I took stills from the video. And let me tell you, that video is absolutely precious to me. Not just because of my darling grandson, but because of the swell of joy I can hear in my son's voice, when his little guy smiles at him for the first time. I'm tearing up now, just recalling it!! I love being a mom and a grandma!)

:)

saturday workday . . .

What's the old saying? There's no rest for the weary and the wicked don't need none!

Ummm . . . I'm not going to ponder where I fit into that statement. Perhaps I shouldn't have opened that way!

My weigh in was less than satisfactory this morning. Perhaps it's because I was already dressed and had eaten breakfast. I've been so *painfully* good, it really aggravates me. Perhaps I should have my thyroid checked. LOL! Because it would be so nice if something were "wrong" with me. Good gravy. Sometimes my line of thinking can be a bit bizarre! (I don't *really* want anything to be wrong with me. I'd just like to lose 2-3 pounds per week. So there.)

Anyway, it's 8:12 and the cars are starting to make their way into the camp for the MACOBA (which, by the way, stands for MAdison COunty Baptist Association) work day! I fed Todd (and me) a good, hearty omelet and sausage breakfast, and we had multiple cups of Keurig coffee, so we're armed and ready!!

Unfortunately, it looks like the rain is on their heels, but they are going to give it all they've got in the meantime!!

While they put up the shed and get our new site leveled (among other things), I'm going to take down Easter and put up "standard". I need to mess around in the basement and rearrange some of our totes (and label them) so I can get in and out of my *stuff* more easily. Then, provided the weather stays at bay, I'll help get lunch together for the volunteers, serve, and clean up!

The forest continues to get greener and denser. The air up here smells *so* good! God's handiwork is ever evident. How blessed I am!

Onward!

:)