Monday, July 18, 2005

Blessed be the name of the LORD!

God is so good to me. Even when ~~ especially when ~~ I don't deserve it!

At each point today, when I felt overwhelmed or uncertain, I called on the Holy Spirit. It makes such a huge difference! Praise God!

Then this evening, I quit. I'm so foolish. I gave over to the flesh, and didn't seek the Lord. No wonder I have such a hard time staying on WW in the evenings. It's not like I left God at my workplace! Silly, foolish child I am.

Fiddle-dee-dee. There's always tomorrow to get it right. God? Tomorrow, please remind me that YOU are the one in the driver's seat.


Sunday, July 17, 2005

Good, but strange week. Just so many changes!

The WW thing is going fairly well, so far. Part of my problem is that I want miracles to happen, overnight! I know this isn't possibly -- I know that the weight I've put on, I've put on over the course of several years, so it's going to take at *least* several months to take it off -- but still, I want instant results. Perhaps this is a lesson in patience; knowing that the God who began a good work in me, will see it through to the final result. Am I willing to wait? I HAVE TO BE!

Brother Terry preached another great sermon this morning. Prayer life. Wow. I know I leave a lot to be desired in my prayer life. Something he said really caught my ear. A Christian with a weak prayer life will have a weak walk. A person who has a nonexistant prayer life will have a nonexistant walk. And a person who has an insignificant prayer life, will have a walk that reflects the same. So, if my prayer life is less than to be desired, than my walk must also be a less than desirable walk. Oh God, forgive my lack of prayer. Where my treasure is, there will be my heart be. I suppose, where I am willing to spend time is a reflection of where my treasure is. Lord, I want my treasure to be in YOU. I want to come before you fervently in prayer; to allow the Holy Spirit to move within me. To be usable by You, O my Lord, my KING!

I keep thinking of one of the verses I read this week, in James, chapter five, verse sixteen:

Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so
that you may be healed The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish
much (NASB).

In the King James version of the Bible, it replaces "effective" with "fervent". I like the word fervent, it sounds fun, coming off the tongue. But I wasn't quite sure what it meant. It sounded a little more passionate than effective. Sure enough, when I looked it up on, it has far more meaning than just effective. The main definition is, "very hot: GLOWING". WOW!! That's some word picture, right there. The very hot, GLOWING prayer of a righteous man accomplishes much. The second definition given was, "exhibited or marked by great intensity of feeling: ZEALOUS". Either way, it works. God acts on GLOWING and ZEALOUS prayer! He moves in the prayer life of a righteous one who is passionate about what she prays!

I had to go back and add "righteous" up there. I know I've passionately prayed about stuff that was NOT in God's will. He can't move on that! Wow. Glowing and zealous. Fervent prayer. Awesome stuff.

I need to get to work on purity. I'm so excited to have the opportunity to teach in Apples of Gold! It is such a wonderful ministry! I need to be fervent in my prayers for the class, and the prospective students, and all who will be teaching and leading throughout the Bible study! Abba, USE ME!! Let me make myself available to YOU!


Tuesday, July 12, 2005

I don't really have anything more to say, but I did want to see if this was possible. This is the arrangement I made on Friday, with flowers (and plants) out of our own yard (and down the street on the cat tails)! Purty. The only bad thing about using day lillies is that, well duh, they are only pretty for a day! Luckily these each had several blossoms on each stem, and it's rather self-sustaining.

I wonder if anyone besides me ever reads this blogger. Probably not; it's not like I've posted the site, or made known my blogging . . . still, one wonders these things. Or at least, this one wonders these things!

Interesting day. Food wise it's been fine, although I am now at the stage that is most difficult. I've eaten dinner, I know I'm full, yet I'm not satisfied. I at a sugar free cream saver. Hopefully that will help! Along with my water, of course. Perhaps I'll go back to the bedroom and read for a bit. Hehe.

I interviewed with New Market Ironworks. I start work tomorrow! I'm sort of excited, and sort of anxious. It looks to be a big undertaking, but I believe I'm up to the challenge! Sondra, the other office worker, didn't seem to be too enthusiastic about me being there, but Jennifer is, and that's what matters!

I tried to do the payroll taxes for Derrick today, but couldn't get the numbers to match up. I e-mailed the whole shebang to Tina, hopefully she can make the numbers make sense.

I have blisters on my heals. Yuck. I can't let that deter me from walking.

I'm going to take a 30-minute power nap. Yawn!
*Lots* of things occur to me this morning.

1) Two difficult things (for me) with lifestyle changes to my eating habits:

a) being honest as I track what I eat, and
b) resisting temptation.

I know it's possible, through Christ, to resist temptation. James (the book of) tells me so! All I have to do is resist the devil, and he will flee. Sometimes he's a little more persistent than I am in the eating department. My prayer today is that God will allow me to hold fast to Him, and that I will submit my body to His authority, and not hand it over to the lusts of my flesh. Meaning, I don't want to give in to the cravings today!

2) This is the day to begin. Not tomorrow, not in a week, not next month. Today. Right now. Change needs to begin the moment I recognize that it's necessary.

3) The tongue is a dangerous weapon in more ways than one. James speaks of the tongue also. I use my tongue to do a lot of verbal damage. But I also use my tongue (in fact, my whole mouth, but the tongue already gets such a bad rap) to taste every single thing I place in my mouth. Sometimes I cater more to my tastebuds than to anything else! It's actually a conspiracy between my mind (which tells me it's hungry when it's not) and my tongue (which tells me I have a taste for something when I don't). Hear me now: You both need to just back off! :)

I have to admit, with the exception of the pain in my heel, I really did enjoy my walk today. It felt productive. I read, I drank my water, I listened to Sonic Flood, and I walked a mile! Hooray for me!

I head to the Burkett's place of business today. God, grant me wisdom.